Saturday, October 29, 2011


Write on My Blog -     BaBYbOOmERs RaNt

I have been working on this Blog post for months, a little here, a little there, soooooooo here tis!

Okay October is almost over and my last post on this blog was, well okay,.... according to Blogger it’s been since 6/30/11!!   Nah.......that's just not possible!


Wait...........but I did sorta-kinda post, well okay,it was a draft post that I never got around to posting.  I was planning on it being a post, once I got it done. LMBO, never got ‘around 2 it’ as you can plainly see!  


However, I really had started a new post, (as a draft), on 8/16/11.  You see, July 22nd was my Birthday, and I was going to write something about that. But, then I realized, Hm?! What is there to say, really? Absolutely nothing.



I turned 62,this past summer, but truthfully, July 22nd just went by like all the other days. No presents, no cards, no birthday cake. Soooo, it really doesn’t count right?  I mean really, what is there to write about anyway?  So I had a birthday go by...big freaking deal!  Sixty-two years ago, on July 22, 1949, I came out of my Mother’s womb. I cannot say I have really accomplished much with my life since. 


Well, okay, at least I got through High School before I went and got myself pregnant.


No, no, do not get the wrong impression. As I have said before, I do not regret having my children. I love them both with all my heart! What I do regret is not having planned my life a little better, and I regret not going to College. 


But, as we all know,.....shit  (things) just happen. I was very young, and very impressionable, na├»ve, and dying to get out from under my Father’s thumb, ‘so to speak’. My father was a very domineering, very controlling man. Hm? An awful lot of verys’ in there huh.


Yes, I have two beautiful (adult) children, whom I love with all my heart. I also now have 7 grandchildren through marriage. I wish I could hug them all...ALL the time, so that they would know how much I love every one of them. 


Since that is not possible, considering hubby and I live almost 700 miles away, we visit one another as often as is possible. Considering the cost of gasoline, that has not been quite as often as I would like.


Okay, I had a birthday, but that was just another day to me. Nothing exciting about it, nothing monumental. However, since my birthday I have had some quite ‘eventful’ days. One in particular stands out with me. 

It was another beautiful day in South Carolina.


The afternoon of September 28th, I was making a quick trip to the drug store to pick up prescriptions that were ready for me. I was patiently waiting in line at a traffic light to cross the intersection of a major Hwy that comes into Myrtle. 


I was about the third car in the line. My seatbelt was secure, and I had put the car in park, mainly because I knew that the light had not been red for very long, and that those particular lights tend to be very long-winded. It is usually close to 7 minutes long, considering it intersects a major Hwy, I suppose that is to be expected. 


Anyway, I was sitting there minding my own business, when all of a sudden I HEAR and FEEL vehicles bombarding my little Dodge Caliber. My car literally vibrated like a tuning fork, but in actuality, barely moved. The glass in both my driver’s side window and the front passenger side window exploded inward and went all over the inside of my car! 


It seemed to go on forever, but it was really over in a matter of seconds. When the bombardment finally stopped, the vehicle that had been sitting in the left turn lane on my drivers side, was turned on its side. It had been slammed up against the left side of my car, while the vehicle that hit that car lay halfway on top of mine, with its rear wheels sitting on the top of my car, and its front end resting on the pavement on the right side of my car.

I never saw it coming!  


It was WHAM, BAMB!! .....and I was stuck right in the middle! I looked on my left, and all I could see was the roof of the vehicle that was sitting in the left side lane, while on the right side all I could see was the bottom of the vehicle that had gone over the top of mine. Then, I started to see the smoke gathering, and smell the pungent odor of gasoline. 


The first thing I thought to do was to turn off my vehicle, which I did immediately. It was already in PARK. I unfastened my seat belt, and looked around the inside of my car to assess my odds of getting out of it without causing myself injury. There were shards of glass from the windows in every crevasse and all over the front and back seats. 


Getting out through my driver’s side door was not an option, since there was a vehicle smashed up against it. On the other side, the other vehicle’s rear wheels were resting on the right top of my car, while its front end was resting on the pavement. I remember thinking, good God! What could have caused this mess!!


I wanted out of my car, and it looked like the only way out was to go in between the front and the backseats and through the left side passenger door, which was really my only way out. I started to get up to crawl over the console and to the backseats, when I heard several people yelling at me to stay put, not to move, as I could be injured and not know it.



Well, I sat there for a moment listening to people telling me to stay in my car, but then that smell of gasoline, and the smoke alarmed me enough to take the chance of moving. So, I climbed over the console and between the seats, to crawl out the back door. 


Once I was out of the car, I had people all around me taking hold of my arms and helping me off to the side of the road. I was not injured, amazingly, but my legs were definitely shaky. I was just in total shock. 



I soon discovered that one of the people that was there with me, was a nurse from one of the local Hospitals. She had me sit down in the grass off to the side of the road until someone from the emergency crew could check me out. 


Apparently she had been in one of the cars sitting behind me, and she had seen the whole accident. She told me that a Dump Truck changed lanes right at the light, and forced another car to veer off the road, crashing into the vehicle on my driver’s side, and then over mine.


Pictures of the scene shortly after the emergency crews arrived.


Overhead view of the scene.


My little red 'Dodge Caliber' was the one in the middle of that mess!!


To this day, when I look at these pictures, I ask myself the same question. How on earth did I escape it without so much as a scratch! 


All I know is..........I feel very lucky to have done so. I can only assume that my Caliber was a pretty darn sturdy little vehicle.  I will miss my little car soooooo very much!


Friday, June 3, 2011

Time Flys By!

Lordie, Lordie!  I'm sorry to say that I had forgotten all about my "Posterous" acct.  Tsk, tsk, as the title implys.....TIME DOES FLY! 


I mean, really.........so much has happened since my last post, which was way too long ago!  But, most importantly, I had to make a trip to the emergency room of our hospital back in April, (thinking that I had a little acid reflux), only to discover that I had a problem with my heart!! I was completely astounded, and totally in denial! Wait a second........NOT me!!  The hubby is the one who has the heart problems, NOT ME!!

Well......needless to say, I had to accept the Hospital's hospitality for a few days. The great thing, though, about our Hospital, is that it is one of the 'Top Ten', when it comes to heart surgery. Sooooooo, I had a catherization and they discovered about 90% blockage in my left anterior artery. The surgeon cleared the blockage and then put a stent in it. I was lucky, there was NO damage to my heart.

Here are a couple of pics that blew my mind!

Before_stent_placement
After_stent_placement
The top picture shows my artery before the stent placement, and the one below shows the after.

Okay.......okay, I know, I know, you are getting older woman!!

You HAVE to stop eating the bad stuff, and start eating the stuff thats good for your heart. 

Sighhhhh.........I just LOVE the chocolate covered 'creme' filled donuts they make at our local Wal-Mart store! They really are TO DIE FOR!  Too bad they are BAD for me!  Dangit! Hm?  I've heard of a new product called, "Sensa".  Just sprinkle it on anything you eat and you can still loose weight!  Ha! What could possibly be in it that can block bad cholesterol?

Has anyone ever tried this stuff??

Seems like only yesterday I posted my very 1st message on here, and then proceeded to take off and forget all about it! LMAO!  Yep!  That's me!  Ms. Forgetful, or Ms. ScatterBrain!

I do have a blog on Blogger.com, that I have kept up with. Well, um, for the most part. :o)

Here is the link for it, if you're interested in checking it out.  http://my-amazing-dreemz.blogspot.com

Besides my totally unexpected trip to the Hospital, the hubby has become something of a celebrity. As you know, or maybe you don't, the hubby is a BTK, (below-the-knee) amputee. He lost his left leg just below the knee in a surgical procedure that went horribly wrong. This happened back in 1998.

He found a Prosthetic Technician down here that works with him, and provides him with a very advanced and special prosthesis so that hubby can play golf and stil 'pivot'.

He was spotlighted just recently in an article for Prosthetic and Orthodic Specialists and their patients. A marketing representative for my hubby's Specialist, "Dr. Lyons of Myrtle Beach", did the interview, and subsequent article, with the hubby at the golf course where he works, "Whispering Pines" Golf Course.

http://bit.ly/krMGxp

It is actually in the form of an email, but it is an Online Newsletter.

Well........I'm going to get off here and try to enjoy my evening now. :o)  It is Friday evening and I've got a couple of programs on TV that I want to watch tonight.

I'll try not to be so delinquent in my posts! 

Au'revior Everyone!


 

 

 

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It's Not Even Summer Yet!

Whoa!  It has been HOT down here!  No....I was NOT referring to Hell!  Just the good ole South!  It's not even Summer yet for heavens sake!

I can just tell...........that it's gonna be a really HOT ONE! 


The "Memorial Day" weekend just flew by!  I hope everyone had a great time during the Holiday. 

You might or might not notice that I changed my background on the blog. 

I decided that there was just TOO MUCH going on with the patchwork stuff!

Me, I just sat at home and kept nicccccce and COOL inside!

Hubby played golf, and ohh........then he played some more golf!  LOL!

Honestly, I'm not sure what he'd do if he ever became unable to play the game.

Oh, by the way, the hubby is now something of a celebrity, I suppose. He was interviewed and appeared in an issue of an online newsletter for "Prosthetic and Orthodic" Technicians.

He was interviewed by the Marketing representative for his Prosthetic Tech. Doctor. 

The link is presented as an email, but is actually an online Newsletter for Prosthetic Technicians and their patients.

As you all know from past posts, the hubby is a "BTK" amputee. His left leg had to be amputated due to a surgical procedure that went horribly wrong. Even though he walks with the aid of a prosthesis, he manages to do most everything everyone else does, it just takes him a little longer.

If you missed the pics I took of his prosthesis before, you will find them HERE

His "Prosthetic Technician Specialist" made it especially for hubby. He can play golf just as good as anyone else. His prosthesis is made especially for him to be able to 'pivot' with the swing of his golf club.

Most recently he was interviewed for an article in a Prosthetics Technicians Newsletter about his 'Disability'. The hubby does NOT like to consider himself disabled, even though, technically he is most definitely so. 

Anyway, I thought I'd put it out there for ya' all to see and read.  It's worth the read, because it was a very good article.

So, without further ado, below is the link to the article.

  
Do me the honor of letting me know what ya' all think please?  I thought the hubby did an excellent job of presenting his feelings about being a BTK, (below-the-knee), amputee.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Happy Memorial Week-end Folks!

Sooooooo, today is Saturday, and I got it right this time!! Hehehe.......last weekend, I kinda bypassed Saturday altogether.  If you read back a few posts, you'll see what I mean.

I walked over to chat with my friend and neighbor, and her hubby happened to have his "Harley" sitting outside, so, of course, I just had to take a picture of it.  Not that I get to ride on it, but Oh Boy!; it sure looks it'd be real fun!!  Anyway, see pictures below:





All I can say is WOW! This is a Classic, and they don't make em like this baby anymore! What a sweet ride that would be!  Ehh.......maybe one of these days my hubby will get a 3-wheeler, he keeps talking about it, but I know that's all that it will be is TALK.  We can't afford such an expensive toy. LOL!

In the meantime I have my own sweet ride!  


 
Isn't she just the prettiest think you ever did see!  Welllll........she can't go quite as fast as the "Harley", but she'll do for now.  At least with my ride, I actually get some exercise, LOL!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Tuesday Trash Day!

Soo........Tuesday Trash Day turned into Wednesday Hump Day, on account of, I didn't get my "Tuesday Trash Day", done on Tuesday, and now it's Wednesday!.........Whoops!!  Just so you know I'm not a crazy broad! crazy Pictures, Images and Photos
Wellllllllll..........Okay, maybe just a little crazy.

I have to admit, I did slip up a while back and put a title for one of my posts as Sunday, when in fact it was Saturday!  Soooooooo, I'm hoping I am not getting early warning signs of Alzheimers.


What can I say, I'm an ole lady.  Shrug Pictures, Images and Photos



The post's title is Trash Day, simply because Tuesday is the day that the garbage people come to dump our trash bin. It's also the day that my husband plays in his "Scrambles" (golf) tournament, not that this has anything to do with Trash!

Well...........the scrambles is held every Tuesday afternoon, and usually doesn't get finished until close to 8PM. The guys play in the scrambles, and then are served a really nice dinner afterward, and then they are awarded prizes, depending upon where they ranked in the tournament.

The hubby has several awards hanging on the walls in this room, called 'the computer room'.  Here are just a few of said awards:


Not sure what organization sponsored this tournament, but as you can see, he won 1st place.  Btw, the picture to the left, is a picture of the hubby's granddaughter, and her mother, whom is the hubby's daughter.  Got that?  I hope so, because I don't plan to repeat it.


This award was actually from the same tournament as the one above, however, this award was for achieving a 'Hole in One'.




The award above is also for a "Hole in One", but it was not from any tournament. This is one he got back in January of 2004, when he was playing at the City Golf Course, "Whispering Pines".

As you know from my previous posts, my husband is a below the knee amputee.  He lost his left leg, just below the knee, and he wears a prosthesis. He was just featured in a news article that caters to Prosthesis Pedorthists', and manufacturers of Prosthetic appliances. As soon as the article comes out, I will post it here.  

Until next time folks!
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Monday, May 23, 2011

Monday, Monday......you know, like the song!

Raise your hand if you like Mondays!!


Only Hermione Granger would like Mondays!  Am I right???   

Her character in the Harry Potter movies, played by "Emma Watson" was portrayed as the very studious and little know it all girl/friend of Harry Potter, along with Ron Weasley, (Rupert Grint), who Hermione develops a kind of love/hate relationship with.

ABC Family channel had the "Harry Potter" movies aired all weekend long, which is what made me think of Hermione, of course.

Sooo, I spent the weekend totally relaxing......um, well, not totally. Actually I spent the weekend trying to redesign my blog.  I think I've got it to the point where I can live with it, but I still might tweak it a bit here and there.  I wish I were a bit more of a tech-head than I am........but as the saying goes, "it is what it is".  So, I make do with what I can do, and the rest will hopefully work itself out.  Sooner or later..........probably mostly later!

In one of my earlier posts I spoke about the TLC channel, and a show called, "Cake Boss". I love watching Buddy and his cohorts making those amazing cakes!  Below are just a few that I thought were pretty spectacular!


 Aren't they just unbelievable!  I can just imagine the amount of work that go into making these. I thought, for a while, about learning how to make fondant, but after watching this show........I decided against it.  It's just a whole lot of work for this ole lady to really mess with.  Also, I've heard from some folks that fondant isn't all that tasty either.  But who knows, I might still try it some day.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

OMG! I'm a Bloody Idiot!

See....you see what I mean.  Yesterday was bloody Saturday.......and all day I was thinking Sunday!!!  I'm loosing it!  Where is my brain?  Helloooooo brain!  It's me Jeanie calling!!  Damnit!



It's the stress............it's gotta be the stress!  What stress......I have no stress.  Umm.....wellllllll, yeah, I guess there is a little bit.  Hubby came home last night, and I just KNEW he'd been drinking alcohol, when his doctors have specifically told him NOT to. The medication he is on could make it very dangerous!  I didn't call him on it, because, of course, it wouldn't have done me any good, nor served any purpose, except for me getting it out of my system!  


Hm?   Maybe that's just what I need to do.  Or...........maybe I just need to forget about it, and act like it never happened. After all.........at least he didn't OVER do it.  

Change of subject here, I think it's time to get over myself and just blog.

Sooo, with that in mind, I wanted to chat a bit about a television show that I often watch.....okay, not so much often, as ALL THE TIME!  LOL!!  Whenever it's on, I'm watching it!  Ohh......by the way, the name of this show is called, "Say Yes To The Dress".  It's on the TLC channel.  

I love this show. It's sooooooo much fun watching these brides trying on wedding dresses!!  I love this show because, well, I'm a woman, and women love the romance of it, and the dressing up part.  I mean there are some women that get the chance to dress up all the time, and then there are women like myself, who NEVER get that chance.  Yes, I know, I've been married twice.  But with my first marriage, I had to wear a hand-me-down that my sister-in-law got married in.  IT was an AWFUL dress........not that it didn't look okay, it just wasn't MY dress!

I dream of wearing one of those beautiful sparkly gown's.  Heck, I just want to try one on!  Actually.......I want to try on a bunch of them!!  LOL!

This is one of my favorites!! Isn't it just beautiful!!

 wedding dresses Pictures, Images and Photos

 Sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Sunday - Not Quite a Lost Cause

Sooooooo, today is Sunday! Thank you God for the day you hath made!  It has been a very beautiful one to be sure.




See.................I told you!  This is the view from our driveway, just off the front porch!  As I said.........BEAUTIFUL, WARM, AND GOD GIVEN!




Ohhh, and while I'm uploading pictures, I wanted to show ya' all this one.  It's one of my hubby's prized tomato plants, and it has a few already growing.  Can't wait for those first HOME GROWN tomatoes!  Yum!


As you can see, he has it planted in a big YELLOW bucket, lol.  Hey.......it's got plenty of room to grow that way.......right??  LOL!


Soo.........I've spent the day trying to improve upon my blog's background, and renew a few of my links.  I'm telling ya!  It's a real b*tch when you're not real good at this techie crap!

PS.  Whoooops!  Correction - This post was actually done on Saturday...............NOT Sunday, LOL!  I'm such a dork sometimes!



Friday, May 20, 2011

SELF INFLICTED 'HUGE' POTHOLE’S OF LIFE

Well.............here it is almost June of 2011.  Where did the time go?

Huh! I know where it went...really I do!  AWAY......as in GONE forever, never to be seen again.
(Long Deep Sigh).  Why is it that I purposely sabotage myself, and procrastinate on everything!

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I could go on about everything that has happened since my last post here in January.  
Well, actually, I can’t tell you everything. Why? Well, it seems my brain doesn’t remember much about the immediate past, other than the most distinctive events. I think this is because most of the time I go from one day to another, almost completely void of the enthusiasm one should have for life, so the days just rather run together. 

Why little enthusiasm? Well, because I cannot stop thinking about all the mistakes I have made all throughout my life, some of them real disasters. That is especially true of the last 6 to 7 years. 
I come from an era where the hierarchy of society was that women were mostly either homemaker’s and or mothers. Few women back then, were highly educated or held elevated positions in the business world. I never got that far. I became pregnant shortly after graduating from High School. I have never had the financial and mental freedom that some women experience. I have let men control my whole life for the most part. The key word here is LET.  I let myself be controlled. 

You see, my personality is one that is pretty easy going, and not the sharpest brain wise. I also had a very domineering father, so I was eager for any chance to get out from under his dominant character. I had a boyfriend whom I subsequently married. He treated me pretty well most of the time, but then there were times when he was verbally abusive, and in the back of my mind I knew that I should have stood up for myself, but I just didn’t have the confidence, nor the courage, and for 22 years, I let him abuse me. Not that everything in our marriage was all bad. We made two beautiful children together, who grew up to be very wonderful, very intelligent adults. I am very proud of them, and always will be! I love my kids!  However, in terms of my marriage, and the relationship with my husband, by the time of our 22nd  Wedding Anniversary, I had grown out of love with him. Actually, it was probably long before that, but it was at that point that I knew I could no longer pretend feelings I no longer had, and I had to find the courage to do what I had to do. 

You see, I’d met another man, who made me feel attractive, and even sexy. He treated me like someone who's opinions or thoughts mattered to him. But that man was simply nothing more than the catalyst that helped me to find the courage to separate, and eventually divorce my 1st husband. During that time I realized that even though my husband loved me in his own way, it wasn't the right way. I can't put all the blame on him either. I let him treat me badly. I let him walk all over me.

After my divorce, the ‘other’ man disappeared from my life, which is just as well. I knew it was a toxic relationship for me.

On my own; for the first time in my life since leaving home as a young married woman, I felt free for the very first time in my life, but, I was obviously frightened for my future. I had no real experience with the outside workforce, and I knew I needed more education. Anyway, to make a long story short, I soon became involved with another man. This man became my 2nd, and current husband.  He came into my life at a period of time when I was very vulnerable, and he literally swept me off my feet. He told me that he would take care of me. He told me that I could quit working, and that he would support me in every way possible. At the time, it sounded wonderful, and certainly eased my concern for my future. He also gave me the impression that we had a lot in common. 

Now, I’m not going to get into all that here because it wouldn’t really serve any purpose at this point.
So here I am, and I am done with constantly thinking about the past and how many bad mistakes I made! They are in the past, and I can’t change what is over and done with. I can only go on from here, and hope that I can actually do something with my life before it is totally over. My recent visit to the emergency room of our hospital really brought that home to me like nothing else could!



I had been having chest pain for almost two weeks, and I kept telling myself that it was just acid reflux, because I’ve had that kind of pain before, years ago, and I knew how it felt. This pain was just like the pain of acid reflux, except for the fact that, when I was having the pain, my arms felt like so much dead weight, and would tingle and ache like the worst toothache!

Another odd thing was the time of day it would hit me.  The first time I experienced the pain was mid morning one day when I was changing the sheets on the bed. All of a sudden, I was short of breath and it felt like my heart was doing a tango in my chest, and I became lightheaded.  

What the hey!? 

I had to stop immediately and sit down to catch my breath. You would think that would have been enough of a warning. But, like everyone else who goes through this type of experience, I was in total denial.
So, that first day it happened, the pain only lasted a few minutes, and then my heart slowed down, and I was fine the rest of the day.  I kept telling myself that it must have been the acid reflux, because the pain from that is almost identical to a heart attack, but in the back of my mind there was that niggling little voice reminding me that I’d been really lethargic for months. I’d been dealing with a bit of depression still, so I assumed that was a part of the cause of my lethargy. But the pain would come back every evening when I laid down to sleep, so I finally called my GP, and I was told to get my butt to the emergency room and get myself checked out.  

As it turned out, I discovered that it was a great deal more than just a little acid! I had almost 90% blockage in the left anterior, (outer), artery of my heart. A catherization was done and that's when they found the blockage. A stent was placed, and to make a long story short, I'm fine now, except for the depression that still brings me down at times.



My GP has told me repeatedly that I need to seek out counseling, but have I done that yet. NOPE!   I mean, I am not crazy, but the way I see it, there is NOTHING that a counselor can tell me that is going to change the reality that is my life.  Am I whinning?  Yeah, maybe just a tad.
However, I cope in my own way. 

You see, I love to read books, a lot of books; mostly fantasy and historical romance. 

They take me away from my dreary depressing thoughts for a time. They take me into a different world, and sometimes a different time. Sometimes it is based in the past, (Victorian era), or in the future. It’s mostly just fantasy. Actually, it’s pretty much ALL fantasy, LOL.

 Yes, it is a make believe world, but the operative words here are ‘different’, or ‘fantasy’. The books I read are mostly romance, and definitely fictional!  No one, to my knowledge, finds the kind of chemical, biological, and emotional, (soul mate), type of love that these fictional characters find. It’s all pure fantasy to me, soul mates, Ha! No such thing!

However, that does not mean that I don’t enjoy reading about it. It takes me away. It takes me beyond my own blah, ho hum, existence. 

So, I will push on and try to make more of each and every day I have left on this earth. Life is a gift, and we should never take it for granted. 

Who knows, maybe I'll take up cake decorating!  I love this one show that is broadcast on TLC. The name of it is "Cake Boss".  This guy named 'Buddy' makes some pretty incredible and beautiful cakes.  I also enjoy "Cupcake Wars", and "Fabulous Cakes".


Another show that is also on TLC, is called, "Say Yes To The Dress".  I love to watch these women trying on beautiful wedding gowns!  It's quite entertaining I assure you!


Until my next post, Au'revoir' my friends!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Sheeeeesh!

One of these days I will have my blog designed the way I want it!  I swear it!   LOL!
 

Until such time, I'm sorry about the odd looking space where my background is missing at the top of my blog. I can't seem to get any answers as to HOW to fix it???  Soooo, I'm trying everything short of deleting the whole blog and just starting ALL over.

If anyone has a suggestion, I'm all ears here!!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year??? Where? When?? How???

Well, I'll be damned!  Where the HELL did 2010 go anyway?

Whoooooooosh!  And there it went.........bye bye 2010, and HELLO 2011.

I am another year older, and .......wiser?  Hm?  not sure that applies to me.


And so................another year begins!  What will it bring? Heartache? More pain? More debt?  There can't possibly be any more debt, LOL! Well yeah..........I guess there could be actually.  But hopefully, if I play my cards right, the debt will resolve itself this year, HOPEFULLY!

I've been trying to revamp my blog, with a different background and a different set-up. As you can see...........I haven't gotten it to work yet!!  I love to write, but when it comes to the techie side of things, I'm truly a lame-brain!

I guess I'll figure it out sooner or later! LOL!