Ho Hummmm!

Another beautiful day in South Carolina!!

Well, okay.........today is NOT so beautiful.  It is overcast today, lots of clouds on the horizon, but most the rain looks to be out a few miles off shore.  Unless it decides to build up some showers later, it'll just NOT be as sunny as usual.

Last night was fun let me tell you! Um, on second thought, maybe not.  I wish I could tell you........but then, I'd have to kill you!   KIDDING!!  ((winks)).

Seriously?  Well, I had the delightful distinction of walking on eggshells, because someone came home from playing golf, a little plastered 'under the weather'. When (he who cannot be named) is in this condition, his personality is scary.  He becomes mean and downright nasty.  This has happened enough times that the front fender of  his truck has dings and scraps all across the front!

I made the statements above several days ago, on the 7th of June to be exact. And, today is actually a beautiful day, although it's going to be a HOT one. Anyway, since that time I've had a umm, shall we say a 'heart to heart' talk with the person in question, and I think he FINALLY realizes that he has to do something about these 'lapses' that he has with alcohol. I've made it VERY plain to him that if it happens again, there will be consequences. I will not, and cannot stand idly by while he indulges. He knows that he is an alcoholic. He went through treatment for it many years ago, when he spent a good deal of his youth drunk and disorderly.I explained to him that he is endangering his life and the lives of others when he goes there, because he usually ends up driving under the influence.  He has GOT to stop!  Not to mention the fact that he is now 65 years old, no spring chicken.

Now it's just a waiting game. Will he be able to do this without help? Not sure, not sure at all.  In the meantime, we are very close to loosing our home. The bank has given us an ultimatum. We must come up with a certain amount of past due, or we will be facing foreclosure.

I've done all the grunt work trying to keep this from happening. I called CCCS and worked out a plan of attack, but the paperwork set around for weeks, while hubby tried to ignore it, or maybe he was waiting for me to do it?  I don't know.......I should have pushed him, but why should I have to?  If he wants to keep our home, wouldn't he be doing everything possible to prevent loosing it?

Sigh.  I am befuddled, and very tired of always being the one to do without the things I want. What do I want?  A decent mattress to sleep on for one thing! A decent computer desk and a comfortable computer chair. Is that too much to ask for?

I really don't know anymore.  I don't know.