Have you ever had one of those moments where you had been under a GREAT deal of stress, and something happens out of the blue that makes you laugh.......and then you cannot quit laughing, and you laugh soooo hard that you end up bursting into tears at the very worst of times?
I had one of those moments.........its not been recently, although when I think about it.......maybe I need such a release right now.
Anyway, as I was saying, this happened some years ago, when I was going through my divorce to my 1st husband. I was visiting with my folks for the week-end, and I went to church with them on Sunday morning.
It was a small town church, very quaint. That morning the church was packed, I suppose because it was a beautiful spring morning, one meant for worshipping God, and thanking him for all he has given us.
As in most churches there is always at some point during the morning sermon, where the parishioners are asked to stand and sing along with the choir. I was standing next to my dear sweet Mother singing along with her, while she held the songbook.
As we were singing my Mother slipped up and uttered a word that was umm.........well, it wasn't the word in the song, and for some reason it just hit me and I started to chuckle, and the more I chuckled the harder it was to stop. I soon realized that I was out of control, my emotions were suddenly spilling out of me right there in that little small town church, and I can tell you that it was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life!
Yes, I've had other embarrassing moments, but since my separation from the hubby, the whole world, and my attitude toward it has changed. I look back on that moment with fondness now, remembering how simple life was for me then, even when I was going through the divorce......that doesn't even come close to comparing with the HELL I went through while separated from the 2nd hubby.
The world is so much more complex now, so many unknowns, so many uncertainty's. So much more evil out there, and people who want to do us harm. I'm so glad for what I have, even if my health is not so good, I have a roof over my head, MY ROOF, and food to eat and a bed to lay my head down. How could I want for more?